Way To Go, Sign...

This is what I call a sign: When I'm sitting on the couch last night, thinking about how the glow of my apartment is all it takes some days to warm me up...and I wonder if anyone in my life understands the things I value...moments in time...significance...a kind word...a look...a hug... And I dream about an xmas & hannukah season that has no presents in it at all. Just good food, warm light, laughing and singing. The best family. The best friends. A lot of hugs. And I wake up this morning and decide to try and help someone somewhere. So I research volunteering on Christmas... And I write about the fact that I'm struggling. And it feels a bit freeing. And then, checking the news I find that the Goo Goo Dolls - whose music is one thing my brothers and I have in common - have released a new single to be on their album coming soon...and I listen to the song and read the lyrics. And I tear up. And I think...now that...is one hell of a sign.

"And you ask me what I want this year/And I try to make this kind and clear Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days Cuz I don’t need boxes wrapped in strings/And designer love and empty things Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days So take these words/And sing out loud/Cuz everyone is forgiven now Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again I need someplace simple where we could live/And something only you can give And that’s faith and trust and peace while we’re alive And the one poor child who saved this world/There’s ten million more who probably could/If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them So take these words/And sing out loud/Cuz everyone is forgiven now Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again I wish everyone was loved tonight/And somehow stop this endless fight Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days So take these words/And sing out loud/Cuz everyone is forgiven now Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again..."