Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Silly Superpowers...

I always go to the same Starbucks, in the same corner of the same store. I always see one of three or four of the same employees I always see. They always know exactly what I want, without my having to go through the trouble of saying "venti-non fat-toffee-nut-latte-extra-shot-little-whip". I get to the counter and they see me and smile, and they're already scrawling out my little code on the side of that beautiful green and white paper cup. But sometimes... Sometimes I just wish for a little anonymity. Sometimes I wish they didn't know my usual favorite so I could feel free to change my mind. Because there are times that I do want something different...and now, change feels impossible. Sometimes I wish for even more anonymity. Sometimes I wish I could go through the day without anyone knowing who I am. Sometimes I wish I had a platform from which I could say anything and be exactly who I am...and it wouldn't crush what everyone else is already so used to knowing. Sometimes I wish I'd never told anyone about this blog. What a silly thing. If I could just be unknown for one day...How free I would feel.