Thursday, May 04, 2006
The Terrible 20's
There's something about your 20's that is just terrible. You don't get enough sleep - in fact you're completely exhausted pretty much 100% of the time. You push the limits of procrastination no matter how important the task. You push the limits of laundry...hey, if it passes the smell test...all is well. Underwear is - by all means - excluded from the above statement. You don't know what eating right means. But you know eating right now as opposed to eating never can mean Ramen Noodles for breakfast. You'll consume massive amounts of alcohol. You'll vomit in public places - or at the very least inappropriate places in the privacy of your own home. You'll leave the right guy for the wrong guy, lie, cheat and eventually steal. You'll say 'I love you' when you shouldn't. Kiss who you shouldn't and believe more in that kiss than you really should. You'll believe in just about anything. There's something about your 20's that thrives on caffienne, sodium and stress. You screw up. You screw up. You screw up. You're late. You forget a birthday. You favor friends over family. You make bad decisions. You get fired. You quit. I just keep thinking about my life. And what I do. And what I don't do. And the people in it. And what they do...or don't do. And what happens. And who I am. And here's the thing... I like to be moved to inspiration by prime-time television dramas. I love soundtracks. I have a hard time watching people suffer - physically, emotionally and mentally. I like losing myself in movies. And when I cry at one - it makes me feel more human. And I need people. Sometimes more than I'd like to admit. And I keep thinking...that all this has to amount to something. Maybe terrible can define your 20's. But I think those same terrible things somehow...make you want to live more.