Thursday, May 04, 2006

The Terrible 20's

There's something about your 20's that is just terrible. You don't get enough sleep - in fact you're completely exhausted pretty much 100% of the time. You push the limits of procrastination no matter how important the task. You push the limits of laundry...hey, if it passes the smell test...all is well. Underwear is - by all means - excluded from the above statement. You don't know what eating right means. But you know eating right now as opposed to eating never can mean Ramen Noodles for breakfast. You'll consume massive amounts of alcohol. You'll vomit in public places - or at the very least inappropriate places in the privacy of your own home. You'll leave the right guy for the wrong guy, lie, cheat and eventually steal. You'll say 'I love you' when you shouldn't. Kiss who you shouldn't and believe more in that kiss than you really should. You'll believe in just about anything. There's something about your 20's that thrives on caffienne, sodium and stress. You screw up. You screw up. You screw up. You're late. You forget a birthday. You favor friends over family. You make bad decisions. You get fired. You quit. I just keep thinking about my life. And what I do. And what I don't do. And the people in it. And what they do...or don't do. And what happens. And who I am. And here's the thing... I like to be moved to inspiration by prime-time television dramas. I love soundtracks. I have a hard time watching people suffer - physically, emotionally and mentally. I like losing myself in movies. And when I cry at one - it makes me feel more human. And I need people. Sometimes more than I'd like to admit. And I keep thinking...that all this has to amount to something. Maybe terrible can define your 20's. But I think those same terrible things somehow...make you want to live more.

5 comments:

Alan said...

The worst thing about my 20's was that I expected too much from myself. Too much pressure.

Leslie said...

Not to worry or to make you depressed, but the 20's are almost over my friend. Hopefully the 30's are better.

Jessica said...

Ha ha...pressure. Expecting too much of oneself. I think I need to devote a whole blog to that concept.

Jessica said...

Yes Leslie, let's hope. Incidentally - I've never really been frightened by the idea of turning 30...it's the idea of having nothing to show for 30 years of existence.

Leslie said...

I agree. I could care less about becoming 30. What scares me is that after I turn 30 and someone asks me what I'm up to I'll have to reply that I live with my parents, I am still single, and I can barely afford my car. Oh yes my friend, the 30's are not looking much better. There's always the 40's right?